Five Loaves, Two Fishes

I was again making myself cry tonight. Hahaha. It is my job seeking Day 5. And things had been quite well, by faith. :) Mahirap mag hanap ng trabaho bilang nars sa Pilipinas. Especially if novice ka pa lang and no experience at all. It takes a lot of effort, patience, and faith. Lahat siguro, or mostly, nang novice nurses came to point na sumuko na lang. Or some came into the very tempting point of desperation.

Another thing that makes things harder for nurses is the point where we have to pay for us to have "experience." Nakakalungkot talagang isipin. Nakakadisappoint. Reality truly hurts. This world seem to never understand the importance of nurses. Sa totoo lang, ang dami ko nang na-type na binura ko rin. Hahaha. 'Cause it sounds like I am already ranting and parang mang-aaway nalang ako ng tao. I don't want to sound too negative or dwell on the negativity of things. Ok, nurses are being treated nowadays like we're back in the Crimean Wars. But I don't want to just sit in a corner and sulk. Walang mangyayari kung iiyak lang din ako. Hindi ako ma-ha-hire, hindi ako magiging mabuting tao pag nakisabay ako sa negativity. And I really believe we can do something. 

And I came across to this video with the title: "what is your five loaves and two fishes?' Now, it made me think of some realizations. At some point of our lives, darating tayo sa point na kung saan iisipin nating wala tayong mai-ooffer because we barely have nothing. Jesus transformed what the boy had into a great blessing. And limang tinapay at dalawang isda lang yung dala nung bata. The multitudes could have laughed at him noon. But the boy gave it to Jesus and it had fed thousands. The boy trusted Jesus as he handed Him what he just had at that moment. He trusted Him that it could touch thousands. And it did. 

“Then Andrew, Simon Peter’s brother, spoke up. ‘There’s a young boy here with five barley loaves and two fish. But what good is that with this huge crowd?'” — John 6:8-9

I know I don't have anything or I don't have that much to offer what most of employers demand. But I have my dreams, my aspirations, my desires, my deepest motivations, my tears, my talents,  and my faith. I am not perfect so I also have my flaws, my fears, my insecurities, my cowardice. And I know an Employer who doesn't demand me much, just kung ano lang ang meron ako. I know an Employer who also accepts my flaws and could even transform them into something great. I know Him. He is Jesus. So I offer Him my dreams, my aspirations, my desires, my deepest motivations, my tears, my talents, and my faith, my flaws, my fears, my insecurities, my cowardice. To the world, it may seem nothing but to Him it is everything. And I believe He can make something out of my 5 loaves and 2 fishes. I cannot control the things that happens but I can hang on to God who controls all things and that is enough. Kung ano lang ang satingin ko ay kaya kong mabago or ma-control, then that is it. He is the Employer of all employers. I know, in Him I am hired. :)

And it goes the same with you kapatid.  What are your five loaves and two fishes? What are those things that you think God is asking for you to surrender? Don't think they are too small or worthless. If God asks you of those five loaves and two fishes, He must have strong reasons in doing so. 'Wag mong iisipin that you have nothing to offer. We have Jesus and He is enough. Kung buhay mo nalang ang meron ka, then it is better for us to offer it to God. Dahil kahit gaano man ka-broken yan, kayang-kaya Niyang ayusin at i-transform ito for His glory. :)