“I’ll always be the girl who’ll support you through thick
and thin.”
I’ve been going through different turmoil in my life right
now. It’s February 25, 2015, and after several attempts of making a post,
finally and hopefully I can make one this time. Dear reader, if you would
happen to look at my queue, I’ve got a couple of drafts. Drafts that lack
motivation so they just remained drafts. Anyway, thanks for reading if you
happen to drop by. :)
So the quote is said by, no other than, me. To a dear friend
that yeah, I’ll support no matter what. Hey, that’s what friends are for, isn’t?
And the person is not just an ordinary friend. We’re siblings in Christ. We’ve
been through several circumstances in life and as I’ve said, I’ll always be
that girl who’ll support through thick and thin.
I guess I’ll always be that kind of person. The supportive
one. The cheer leader. The encourager.
But life’s been hard on me these days. And seriously, the
cheer leader needs her own cheer leader at times. Unfortunately, the
cheerleader seems not to find even a squad member to shake pompoms for her. I’ve been in a roller coaster ride. Job,
family, disciple, and even love life, rejections (which kinda complicate
things). I worry too much. Too much that my dreams show me of my worst fears. Too
much that it showed me my inner soul is screaming. I’ve been crying so much in
my prayers.
"Be gracious to me, O Lord, for I am in distress; my eye is wasted from grief; my soul and my body also. For my life is spent with sorrow, and my years with sighing; my strength fails because of my iniquity, and my bones waste away." (Psalms 31:9-10)
But I’ve got no choice but to continue living. Dear reader,
at this point in my life, I’ve realized that everything we depend upon aside
from God, (be it another person, our own skills, job, or knowledge) will always
fail and will eventually cause us disappointment. For psychologists and counselors,
my case may be close to depression. I am currently in the stage of deep
waiting. Deep for I really don’t know what’ll happen next.
"But they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint." (Isaiah 40:31)
But as I’ve said, I’ve got no choice but to continue living.
And the Lord reminded me again, not to live as if days are dragging you. Live
with joy, live each day one at a time. (Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about
itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.-Matthew 6:34) There
are things that I cannot control, but I can always pray. And right now, I chose
to surrender things to God. Envisioning myself standing at the pulpit before
the congregation, telling them this story but in a form of a testimony, is a
great motivation.
And I believe, we need not to search for someone who’ll tell
us to support us through thick and thin. For God is already there to support
us. God, at times, will never really send someone so all we have is Him. But
the good news is that, when all that we have is Him, we can be assured that we
have all that we need.
“He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.” (Revelation 21:4)
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