I actually am regretting right now that I haven’t posted anything yet. Puno na ata ng alikabok at cobwebs ang blog na to. Actually, I wonder if merong nagbabasa neto. Ayokong maniwala sa number of views na nai-ta-tally ng Google. Pero, sige. By faith alam ko meron. :) Why in place would I start a blog and wouldn’t dream for readers? Starting a blog is one of my dreams. A blog that would somehow inspire people. That would somehow radiate God’s love and hope though at times my life doesn’t reflect it at all. Which actually is the main point. Kung sarili ko lang ang huhugutan ko ng inspiration, wala. Hindi ako perpektong Christiano. Hindi ko masasabing everyday is a happy day. But my starting a blog is an act of faith. That I can inspire and encourage people and all will be because of God.
Why do I write in Taglish? Simple. Dahil alam kong pribilehiyo ng bawat manunulat na sumulat sa isang wika na sila ay komportable at hindi nito mahahadlangan ang pagdaloy ng mga ideya.
Actually, I write with my co-Filipino citizens in mind. They are my main audience.
Commercial lang yan mga kapatid. Haha. Magtatapos na ang taon. Actually, katatapos lang ng Christmas party namin kanina sa church last Sunday and, Pasko na. :) One thing that I actually reminded myself is, hindi ako ready this year with regards sa mga gifts. Wala akong budget. But all is possible with God.
He that was born in a manger for about some thousand years ago, He that changed the world by dying on the cross. He that holds the world. He that holds my heart. And again reminds me of the things that I should have known by now.
I know I had wished for that fancy material gift that could somehow spark my holidays. I know I had wished for that someone that would exclude me from what youngsters call nowadays as SMP. I know I had wished for a hassle-free discipleship. And I know all of these had been secretly in this heart and that I wouldn’t have known all of this if it wasn’t for God making me realize them.
With this Christmas, I am still asking God to amaze me. ‘Cause I feel so empty. But today, I believe He made it on purpose. For God, at times, have to empty us of everything so we could realize He is the only One we truly ever need and that He is the only One who could satisfy our longings.
Indeed, pag Siya nalang ang meron ka, alam mong nasayo na ang lahat. Lahat-lahat. Dahil kaya Niyang punuan yung kakulangan and kawalan na meron ka. Dahil kapag patuloy nating hinahanap sa mga tao at material na bagay yung pupuno sa atin, patuloy lang tayong mauuhaw. Dahil ang mga material na bagay ay maluluma at ang mga tao ay magbabago.
Pag tinanggap mo Siya at nagdesisyong mabuhay para sa Kanya, dun natin natatagpuan yung kapayapaan. Yung kapayapaang hindi maiintindihan ng mundo. Yung kapayapaang pilit hinahanap ng mundo. Sa pagtanggap mo saKanya, tinanggap mo narin ang walang hanggang buhay kasama Siya na may kalakip na joy at peace.
Habang nagsusulat ako, may isang bagay na sumasagi sa isip ko. Tila mali ang magpakita ng kahinaan sa social media. Hindi lahat ng tao na makakabasa neto ay kilala ako. Pero hindi man nila ako makilala, mas importante nang ang Panginoon ang makilala nila. And sabi nga ni Paul,
9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 10 That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. 2 Corinthians 12:9-11
Merry Christmas kapatid! ‘Wag nating kalimutan na si Chirst ang dahilan kung bakit may Christmas at hindi si Santa Claus. Ok? ;) So, kahit wala ka mang handa, wala ka mang magandang regalo, basta nasa puso mo Siya, kompleto ka na. :) Isang napakagandang regalo na ang kompletong pamilya, malusog na pangangatawan, at isang pananaw na kahit anu mang mangyari basta kasama natin Siya lahat ay magiging maayos. ;) God bless!
